For most kids, Grandma and Grandpa’s house is their favorite place to visit. Filled with toys and endless affection, treats and hugs. For ordinary people, Thanksgiving is a particularly special time to spend with family.
That wasn’t my childhood. Don’t worry — this isn’t a sob story.
My grandparents were an intense breed of Irish Catholics. With the alcohol flowing on holidays, there was much fighting. And more fighting.
A few years ago, I went to a Chinese restaurant with my in-laws on Thanksgiving, and a fistfight broke out among the servers. My in-laws were aghast. They were so ashamed of exposing my kids to this strife.
It was, weirdly, a little nice. It felt like a real Murphy family Thanksgiving.
The last Thanksgiving we spent at my grandparents’ house in my childhood was particularly tense. I found myself fidgeting with anything I could find. My grandparents didn’t kid-proof, so I found myself fidgeting with a bottle of super glue.
When the appetizers were served, my palms were wholly glued together. I passed on all my favorite nosh; all of the pigs in a blanket were scarfed down by my cousin. My mother was too caught up fighting with her parents to notice.
Dinner was served, and my mother sat across from me. She was studying to be a speech-language pathologist, and as a part of that training, she was learning sign language. She taught me a few curse words so we could communicate our frustration with each other silently and clandestinely during the meal.
As she signed to me what she thought, I sat across from her, laughing and nodding. She encouraged me to sign back to her; I kept shrugging.
She was concerned: Was I actually having a good time?
No, that couldn’t be right. Then she noticed no food on my plate and my water was untouched. She called me into the kitchen, the only private place in the house that was otherwise filled with family.
She started to interrogate me, asking what was amiss. My grandmother walked in and immediately realized what was happening; she had found the super glue bottle open and empty in the bathroom a little while beforehand.
Finally, I confessed.
The entire family eventually entered the kitchen, and a bottle of nail polish remover was procured. This was before the internet, where a simple search can tell you the solution to such a problem. We faced 15 minutes of fighting between the adults before they decided that the nail polish remover would be tried.
My hands were finally free, but the meal was cold and my hands reeked of acetone. My grandmother decided my punishment for ruining the meal would be our banishment from that Thanksgiving meal and the next one, too.
The joke was on her. My mother and I were delighted. All it took to get out of family Thanksgiving was this. Why didn’t we think of it earlier?
We headed to a Chinese restaurant, and a new tradition was born. Every Thanksgiving after that, that’s where we would celebrate. Years later, I’d be with my in-laws at one. And when the fistfight broke out, I was just so relieved that it was someone else’s family fighting that year.
Editor’s note: Bethany Mandel is the co-author of “Stolen Youth: How Radicals Are Erasing Innocence and Indoctrinating a Generation.” She wrote this for InsideSources.com. Reader reactions, pro or con, are welcomed at AzOpinions@iniusa.org.
Thanksgiving was never an important holiday for me. Gathering the family from near and far for a celebratory meal wasn’t unusual; our family was composed of Italians and a small sprinkling of Irish.
Growing up, we always gathered around different tables at different houses, broke out the biscotti and anisette and whatever random pasta dish was cooking on the stove, and reveled in the gift of multiple generations.
For us, that Thursday that bounced around every year, confusing our calendars, merely marked the start of the “real” holiday: Christmas.
We enjoyed the turkey and stuffing (no one called it dressing) and the various jewel-toned condiments like cranberry sauce and Jell-O molds with marshmallows; the trays of Brussels sprouts crispy with bacon and breadcrumbs; the sunset-hued sweet potatoes and their mashed cousins swimming in butter; and, of course, my mother’s famous whiskey-soaked pumpkin pies. It was always a wonderful meal.
But to be honest, it wasn’t all that special to me. Until it became the most important day in my life.
In 1981, I was a junior at Bryn Mawr College, majoring in French. In April of that year, my father surprised me with the gift of a year abroad studying in France. I hadn’t expected it or even particularly wanted to go. I was a homebody, content with the smaller perimeter of my happy universe, which included three younger brothers, a baby sister, a dog and my loving parents.
Weekly trips from the beautiful Bryn Mawr campus into Philadelphia were enough traveling for me. However, my father made the year in Paris seem like a great life-changing adventure, partly because he’d convinced me. Still, mostly because I didn’t want to disappoint him, so I agreed to go.
And then, the unthinkable happened.
On May 9, 1981, my father went to the doctor to find out why he’d been losing weight and coughing. This runner and weightlifter, who’d given up smoking five years before and was eating healthy food, was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. Doctors gave him one year to live, at most.
After the shock wore off, our family mobilized into action. Ted Flowers wasn’t going to go gentle into that good night. At 42, with a flourishing law practice and six people who adored him, this redheaded Irishman had everything to live for. And his eldest child put her foot down: I wasn’t going to Paris. I’d stay home to be with the rest of them and help Daddy fight.
He refused to let me cancel. I remember his exact words: “You are not sitting at home to watch me die! I’ll be fine. I promise you, Chrissy. And I’ll be here when you get home.”
Resistance was futile. So, on Sept. 11, 1981, I began the adventure I didn’t want.
I’ll admit the first few weeks were tough. I was often lonely. I took long walks, ate many croissants and gained weight, wrote letters home every day, took photos with the old Minolta camera my father had lent me for the trip, and lived for the weekly collect phone call I was allowed to make home. (This was decades before Zoom and WhatsApp, so you can imagine the cost.)
Overall, I could function pretty well because I was 19, and this was, after all, Paris. My little apartment was in the scenic center of a bustling neighborhood. I lived around the corner from the Rodin museum, and there were patisseries at virtually every corner. My landlady was the spitting image of Coco Chanel (without the notoriously bad temper).
Then, it was the third week of November, and … nothing. Not a turkey or pilgrim in sight. No reference to thanks, to pumpkin pie or even to disgusting cranberry molds. The French had no use for it, at least not 43 years ago.
I heard from some students that they were going to an Episcopal church where expat Americans were having a small get-together, but I wasn’t interested. Why would I celebrate Thanksgiving with strangers when my whole conception of the holiday was family?
And so, sad and lonely, I created my private celebration. I bought an apple tarte tatin and pretended it was a pumpkin. I bought some apples, toothpicks,and gumdrops and made those little faux turkeys I’d learned to make in third grade. I went to the Jardin de Luxembourg and gathered up the few remaining fallen leaves, brought them home, and sprinkled them in my folding table. I popped a cassette my mother had made for me of local Philly radio shows into my boom box so I could hear that horrible, beloved Philly accent. I bought two ham and cheese sandwiches on French bread and a half bottle of wine.
And then I prayed that my father would live forever.
That night, I called my family. They were six hours behind, preparing to sit down for their meal. My father took the phone, and his voice, weak but still recognizable, was the greatest blessing.
My father died six months later, on May 8, 1982. Part of me wishes I’d been there for that last year. But deep inside, I know that my Thanksgiving thousands of miles away was his last gift to me, the gift of freedom, of adventure, of independence, of protection against the daily grief of seeing him fade.
And I realize that my Thanksgiving in Paris was the most authentic and powerful holiday I’ve ever experienced. Because it indeed was the best manifestation of gratitude, blessing and thanks.
Christine Flowers is an immigration lawyer in Philadelphia. She wrote this for InsideSources.com. Reader reactions, pro or con, are welcomed at AzOpinions@iniusa.org.
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